Sunday, October 28, 2012

Dearest Mesho

I know a lot have changed between us in those two years. I know I haven't been the best sister. I know I snap for the dumbest reasons. I know I haven't been supportive or present.. I know I'm more of annoyance than I am of help. I also know I love you and I hope you still love me too.

You are the only person I can be myself with even if myself is not the best thing to be. I am tired of having to fake normality so I come home and take it all out on you. I'm sorry for that.. I'm sorry for what I've done to us. Be patient please, I'm working on it! Have faith in me, your faith keeps me going. Please don't hate me, I really can't bear the thought. I love you little sister, now and forever. You are my reason to live, please don't give up on me..

Friday, October 26, 2012

Three Pills Later

I feel horrible today. People come and go and I'm still swinging on this swing set of life. Wish this day will end and all can be left behind. I'm kind of nauseous.

عيدكم مبارك.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Make Me Ok

Just started a course of antidepressants. I know they're no magic pills but I guess it can't get any worse so what's the harm in trying? I hope that with counseling and everything I'll be able to reclaim my life. One way or another, I will be ok. This will not be the end of me.. I won't allow it. 

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Some Men Just Want to Watch the World Burn

We can stop the shit from hitting the fan, yet we choose to burn it when it’s already too late.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Malala Yousafzai

Girls as young as 14 are being shot for standing up. Not a single post on Botamba mentioning this. No prayers uttered wishing them full recovery. Nothing.

Where are the human rights activists? Where are the feminists? Is there any humanity remaining in any of you at all? Or is talking about something that doesn’t put bread on the table too much of a hassle? What’s becoming of us! This is so wrong.

Just google the name. reclaim your lost purpose in life. Do something other than passing through life with nothing more than vanity. You make me sad.

Be safe Malala Yusafzai, what you did at a very young age no one in my country will ever do. Be proud of what you’ve turned into. You are one of the few humans left in this world. Please stay with us.. Please!