Sunday, July 17, 2011

Golden Era

I don't know if you've noticed, but blogs now are no longer what they used to be. I remember when I first started blog-hopping five years ago how the blogoshpere used to be a virtual community. Bloggers practically lived one another's experience by reading about each others lives in the posts that they wrote. I can't help but envy their experience, respect what they've created, and hate what became of their legacy.

Maybe I'm being selfish for wanting to relate. I mean, who wants to be inspired anymore? Why seek a challenge when you can be a carbon copy of everyone else! Well, why not?

It frustrates me having a blog at a time when none of this applies. I wish I was smart enough to start blogging back then, I wish this blog was born in that golden era.

I come here to take a break from the superficial and pretentious world out there, and for what? Only to find myself sucked deeper inside...

I hate everything about the current state of the blogging world. It's hard to believe that a person could own something that so impersonal it could be confused with spam!

I'm not talking about everyone out there, but the majority is! But thanks be to god for the amazing people that I'm following. I grow fonder of all of you with each passing day. Thank you for keeping me sane!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

I've Got the Powah!

It's been a while since I introduced someone here, I kind of forgot about it to be honest, so I thought why not do one today? Since I couldn't narrow it down to one person (actually I couldn't think of any!) I'm going to writing about my ring. Yup, you read that right!

The ring I'm talking about is my dear college ring, the only good thing that came out of KU! I call it El8owwa "The Power" because I get to say "I've got the powah" when wearing it this way :p

What do you write about a ring? Ummm it fits me perfectly, no? It acts as a weapon if used properly! Hmmm it might give you superpowers?

Well what did you expect! It's 3:30 AM, I'm bored, and I'm writing about a freaking ring! No one told you to expect this to make any sense!

Next time I'm writing about my favorite spatula, stay tuned :p

Friday, July 15, 2011

Colors?

Now that my room is kind of clean, I'm starting to consider a change of color. I mean, I love white and all but I need to change the color of my bed (I hate pink!) so I might as well do the whole room. And no, I'm not changing my bed I love it kaify! I know it's house shaped, shut up!

I'm thinking something in the line of yellow (blond or lemon chiffon) but I'm not sure what to pair it with! I could go with cherry blossom pink, but I'm afraid it'll look like an 80's ice-cream shop!

I thinking if not yellow then I might go with a statement of some sort, seeing that I'm me and I always have something to support or rally against. Maybe something related to my study, I could have statistics and important numbers related to global warming or deforestation.

Hmmm this is starting to prove to be harder than I've imagined! Maybe I should just paint my bed white and pretend that I'm in a mental hospital :p
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Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Impulses FTW!

As of lately, my life became kind of meh and uninspiring so I unconsciously took a leave of absence. It's not that I haven't been up to anything- because when I look back, I was actually active- it's just that I haven't been feeling active. Somehow everything I did became a chore, including going out and having fun. You see, yours truly is a creature of spontaneity and life was starting to be too planned ahead and organized.

I knew something had to happen to get me out of this rut, so as always I relied on the first impulse (actually 2)that I had, so I:
- Cut my hair. I'm rocking a sideway layered look where it's the shortest on the right and the longest on the left with various lengths in between. I should totally do this for a living, I'm a visionary!

- Started cleaning my room (that picture up there, those tiles were invisible a couple of days ago!), a process that was a year in the making and will probably take weeks to be completed. But at least I'm doing my laundry, and I must admit, it's nice wearing clean clothes for a change. I also found 51 pair of socks and still counting!

You know, I might have temporary lost my stepping but now, more than ever, I know what I want next! I really appreciate you asking about me and I'll try to post more.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Little Soldiers

When my nephews asked about the reasons behind the child-soldiers' sadness, I found myself at a loss of words. How could I deliver such atrocities to children who believed that everything could be bought? How do you tell them that a kid who did himself and others wrong only did so because that was his only mean of survival? How do you convince kids that sometimes you're not to blame for the crimes you commit?

This book might not be the best that I've ever read, it's not even in the top 10 or even 20 to be honest, but I can't deny that it taught me something. I may have heard about it all or read it somewhere, but one chapter made me live it and it made all the difference.

I won't write a review because I don't believe that I'll do the book justice, but will I recommend it to anyone? Yes absolutely! Because this book, while it was repetitive at times, will help you understand. It'll make you feel guilty for not having to worry about having to choose between living and killing one of your family members. It'll make you understand why a child would choose this path, why they'd take the role of a cheap and sustainable weapon system. And hopefully it'll give you enough information and knowledge to debate and discuss this with other people, and thus create awareness.

Back to the conversation that started it all. I'm not sure if my nephews will ever give it a second thought, I'm not even sure if they paid enough attention! All I'm sure of is that I tried my best to plant a seed that I'll work hard to grow, hoping that one day those boys will grow up and embrace the cause.

Nephew: why is the kid so sad?
Me: because he has no one and nowhere to go to.
Nephew: why does he have nowhere to go to?
Me: because he did some really bad stuff.
Nephew: why did he do those bad stuff?
Me: because he had nowhere and no one to go to...

It's a vicious cycle, isn't it?

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Currently Reading?

I've been trying to read this book for a week now but it seems that I'm incapable of doing so. I believe that the reason behind it is that this subject is one that would haunt me forever, and I'm afraid that once you read something it can't be unread.

I've read the introduction 8 days ago, and I haven't opened it ever since! I need to man up and start reading, but I'm afraid it won't live up to my expectations! Or even worse, that it would...

Monday, June 6, 2011

Bye Bye Bye

So, my parents are out of the country for 10 days!! I'm not that excited yet but I'm trying to be. I mean, you get money before they leave, freedom when they're away, and gifts when they come back, what more could you ask for! Any accidents that might occur along the way are just added bonus :p

What might happen in the next 10 days will be one of those scenarios:

Pessimistic scenario:
I'll spend my days in bed sleeping, reading, and not giving a fuck about living or pretending that I'm alive because there won't be anyone to expect me to live up to something.

Realistic scenario:
I'll live a stress free life indulging in late nights out and occasionally visiting the house.

Optimistic scenario:
I'll come back one person more and make one of you take me somewhere to take care of that :p

No really I don't care about what I'll do, it's enough that the house has a healthier atmosphere. It's as if it's ok to breath again *breaths it all in*

Sunday, June 5, 2011

I'm in!

Mesho's making me wear this today, I don't mind it :D
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Friday, June 3, 2011

Under My Skin

Teenagehood, as annoying a phase as it may be, is the age of experimenting and discovery. One starts questioning the reason of their existence, life, sexual orientation, sense of belonging, and all the stuff that defines us and makes us the unique individuals that we are.

While I did my share of experimenting, I don't believe that I've done any discovery. I'm still the confused girl that I used to be, but all grown up and still clueless. I feel so lost...

I wanted to grow up so bad. I wanted to stop dealing with all of those feelings that would've lead to discovery. And look at me now, reliving all my failures and mistakes over and over again!

Maybe I should wipe this silly smile off my face. Maybe I should do it right, if only this time.. If only for a short time, before pretending that I'm just fine once again.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

TROLOLOL

I just got an e-mail birthday reminder of a person that I'm no longer acquainted with, isn't it just perfect! as if having people constantly reminding me of the distance that grew between us, now the universe is conspiring against me.

It's not that I miss that person or anything. It's just that I hate being reminded of what's no longer here. I hate the heartache and reminiscing that comes with the mention of the name. I hate the fact that I could no longer wish them a happy birthday...

Technology could be such a troll sometimes!

Monday, May 30, 2011

22 is the New 12!

I've been having this endless fight with dad over unemployment aid. He's been nagging me to go apply and I'm totally opposing the fact that I'll be paid for doing nothing, so I've been coming up with excuses to delay doing that.

Dad studied low and he works at it too, so every time I argue with him he keeps telling me that it's my right and I shouldn't let it go to waste. Well, if it's my right then why am I not given the right to wave?

I was so happy when I got the second nomination, because by refusing it I won't be illegible for the aid. I'm not trying to say that those payments are a bad thing, I'm only saying that it's not for me and I won't feel comfortable accepting them. But now dad is delaying the rejection so he'll have time to apply for it!!!

WTF dad, I AM NOT A CHILD! I don't want this! Why can't you respect my choices for once?

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Generation Stupid

I've been trying to finish this novel for ages now, but I'm really hating the way it's written and I keep putting it down the moment I start reading. So as I started reading it today a stupid voice in my head told me to put it as a display picture on BBM and I wrote that I really hated it.

The moment I changed my picture a girl that I knew from college immediately started to question my choice as if it was up to her to decide what's fit for me! She started by telling me that I should read something "sexy" and that I'm a freak for reading those depressing tales!

My only mistake was trying to argue with her. Maybe I was ambitious enough to think that I could make her understand the logic behind what I'm saying, or maybe I was bored and needed a good argument (that argument failed to even be rational, it's safe to say that I'm not satisfied!), all I know is that the next thing that I felt was agitation and a great urge to physically harm someone.

I tried to tell her that reading about the miseries of the world helps me understand more, it makes me aware, it's a way for me to feel for what people other than myself go through. Her response didn't only insult my intelligence, but it made me question hers. She told me that if I wanted to feel anything then I should want to feel horny and not sorry! That I should read something that would make me feel happy, because she believes that she has never seen me really happy! Then she went on coaching me on life and how I should be dealing with it!

Ughhhh, like seriously! I mean what makes you believe that you know me? What makes you feel that you know what's the best for me? And how come you think that learning in any way is bad? Why are people only concerned with being happy? What about other people's happiness (or lack of it in this case), isn't that important as well? What's happening to the universe!!

The funniest part was that she mentioned, as a part of her argument, that I'm talking about a lala land! LOL me dreaming of a lala land, how wrong is that?

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Cravings

that's mesho, thba7atny 7abetain oo 7abetain like a 3gaideya :p

It takes a certain amount of commitment to restrain yourself from caving in to cravings, I shouldn't have to tell you that I lack that amount of commitment!

Was craving cheese pastries today and it was too late to order so I raided the fridge and found egyptian feta cheese (never heard of it but it was so salty and creamy an YUM!), some tomatoes, and some ciabatta bread so I decided to make a sandwich :D

My joy didn't last because 3amoor devoured the whole thing without me even getting to appreciate it :(
I ended up eating the bread that I burnt earlier with what remained of the tomato.
And that, ladies and gentlemen, was the highlight of my day! FML :)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Another Shade of Pink

So I'm watching Mesho watching a drawing live stream of her favorite gay artist. Lol yeah I have nothing better to do!

Watching her so passionate about her talent makes me wish I was good at something. It really sucks having such deep appreciation for art and not an ounce of talent! Oh well, you win some and you lose some.

I'm pretty satisfied with my nail painting abilities. What? Don't dare say it's not a talent!
I'm having the weirdest PMS symptoms, thus the latest pink nail polish obsession. I really hate pink... Anything -___-

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Fuzzy Logic

Dad bought me tomatoes when I told him that I don't like the ones growing in the garden (mom gardens, I don't eat any of the crops). It might not be much but to me this symbolizes my fathers love. I shall now cut it and put it in my sandwich and eat it :p

Saturday, May 14, 2011

A Break from Sanity

It seems that blogger's done being a whore, good!

So I've been staring at the twirling lights on my roof, and it came to me! I think everyone should make important decisions this way. Detached from reality, focused on nothing but those majestic lights...

I'm not happy and I'm not sad, I might be a bit unsatisfied, but do you know what? I sure as hell will survive :D

Friday, May 13, 2011

Withholding Evidence?

I'm sitting on a piece of news that I haven't yet decided to share. Been thinking that I'd tell everyone once I made up my mind. The thing is, I think my mind is made and my decision is that of theirs, yet still I'm not welling to share!
Zaaaaaaaaaag!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Currently Loving

This is not what I usually go for in a novel, but sometimes change is really good.

I haven't been able to put this book down since yesterday! It's just so bewitching and beautifully made up, I can honestly say that I love it.

It might be an "adult fairy tale" as one review described, it might have people surviving being encased in ice and others vanishing out of shame, it might as well have a happy ending for I really don't care!

I have about a hundred pages to go and I'm not sure if anything could put me off this wonderful tale. It's just one of those novels that don't even have to try so hard to win you over.

I don't know if it's really that good or if it's my craving for a "happily ever after" that's making me praise it as so, but I'll keep on reading it because that's all I've recently wanted to do!

I'm glad to be reading again, it's been really helpful these past few days :D

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Fun with Mesho and 3amoor

My life isn't bad! I know that I've been a bit down lately (or m2awmat'ha 3alla golat 3amoor, it means being emo-like :p), but do you know what! I'm a really cheerful person. The thing is that I need the right people to be cheerful with, and Mesho and 3amoor are 2 of my favorite persons to be around.

Yes my little sister and brother are my life, they are my legacy. I know it's cheesy right? But what can I say! I think I've used up all my motherly hormones on them and that's why I hate kids :p

I just love laughing for hours with 3amoor while tormenting Mesho. I love sitting silently with Mesho and not having to do anything but breath. I love it when they watch me playing any RPG games, and 3amoor would be advising me on strategies, while Mesho follows the stupid storylines. I love coming up with final destination sort of deaths on the dining table and everyone would add a gruesome detail!

My life might be boring but I don't regret being bored around my babies.
I love you to pieces my little monkeys *hugs*

* I'm writing this in my room while hiding from 3amoor because I slapped him and ran away :p

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Preaching Since 19??

Preaching won't solve my crisis of faith mom, please stop doing it! This scaring tactics and guilt tripping isn't going to direct me to the "right path", I'm so over it! Just let me do this my way, let me figure this out on my own, stop fucking interfering!

I'm so sick of this! I no longer want to leave bed so I won't be scrutinized, looked at and talked to like a failure!

I will find my way, I still don't know what way that is, but it'll be the one for me. I'm not going to do something just because I'm scared or because I've been told to anymore, if I'm not sold then I will not go through.

I'll go back to playing Final Fantasy now, I just had to get it off of my chest :p

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Bis Bis MEOW

Ahhhhhh it's over :"D (those are tears of joy :p)

Looking back at it, the actual event wasn't really that bad! I had fun, saw friends, avoided family, danced, took pictures, nearly fainted, then danced some more :p

The day started slow, then suddenly it got hectic! We had to do some last minute shopping and change our initial plan at least a hundred times before we actually got to the salon. The salon was like a mini break, I caught up on some reading, did my hair and makeup then we went to the hall.

The most fun I had was in the bathroom with Noro and Mesho! Now now people, take your minds out of the gutter for a while! We were just hiding there because we couldn't get our 3abayas (long story short, the key to the room was missing for a while) when the groom got there.

Worst thing is that I missed dancing on galeb galbeb (yes I love that song, don't judge me!!) Because we were taking a picture that started with 3 people and ended up with 20 or so!!

Now I'm watching Alice with the kids and other than being a bit tired, I'm pretty fine :D

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Graphology

A couple of weeks ago or even more I attended a lecture about the science (and I use the term loosely) of the analysis of handwriting, or graphology.

I'm not one of those people who buy into any mumbo jumbo that comes their way, so I've had my doubts and was determined to test his "theories" out.

Once the guy stopped talking I wrote a couple lines and went to ask him what could he get from it. He was like "you're shy and polite" and that's when I realized that his practice was way off and of no real analytical value. The end :p

I don't know why I went but I enjoyed going there, I just love proving people wrong :p
Be positive you all lool!!

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Dancing Queen

BMy sister's wedding is just around the corner (this tuesday to be exact) and I'm very excited :D

I love weddings! I might hate marriage as an institution, and I might hate preparing for a wedding, but I can't help but be mad about the actual celebration.

I love weddings because for a short period of time you can dance your worries away and pretend that everything's perfect. Plus, wedding music is the best.

I've always loved dancing but that didn't necessarily make me good at it! So I've been taking those dancing classes and I'd love to say that now my walk of shame is no longer that, it's actually somewhat dance-like which is making me even more excited ^.^

The only problem is that the soles of my feet are all blistered because of friction (saying friction makes me giggle I can't help it wallah :p) and stuff, and it's making dancing a real pain. But that doesn't mean that it's gonna stop me from shaking it! I'm a strong believer of perseverance :p
I'll go shake my fever off now *targe9*

Friday, April 22, 2011

I didn't Plan this!

Heeey there how have you all been? Well who cares about what you all have been up to, so I'm just going to go ahead and and grace you with what I've been up to n.n

I'm not sure if I should start with the good aspect or the bad aspect of my life, but seeing that the bad one contains deeply engraved resentment that I should let out or fade out, I'm gonna start with that.

I have a really troubled relationship with my parents, it had to do with years of neglect and emotional abuse, you know the usual. Once upon a time I used to consume myself with rage, I used to challenge every boundary to get noticed. What I'm trying to say is that I was always sure that if I needed them, if I really needed them (which I hope will never happen!), I'm more than sure that they won't have my back. And what's family if you can't trust them with that?

I wasn't planning on recapturing my childhood but I guess it still bother me even when I say that it doesn't. I'm not saying that I blame my parents for anything, the blame game stopped along time ago. Now I only blame them for one thing, I blame them for the fact that I don't love and respect them.

You see, I've had plenty of reasons to think that I'm a bad person who's not worthy of love, for who would ever love a person not good enough for their parents? And for the longest time I punished myself for not being able to love them and win their love back. But time have treated me well and it taught me that some people are just not worthy of my time, and whoever didn't work for my love didn't deserve it.

This post have developed a mind of it's own...

Mom is one of those religious people that use religion as an excuse for everything that she did wrong. Staying with a mentally abusing and absent father was because god said honor your husband. Not taking us out as a family was to protect us from fetan, and if I think harder I'll come up with a hundred excuse.

Mommy dearest didn't stop at religious excuses, she went on into guilt tripping us into anything that she fell short to accomplish. Every time I gave my mom attitude for not being there she's use "heaven is underneath the mother's feet", or "kamma todeen todan", never have she once held herself accountable for the fact that we're all acting up. I mean we can't all be bad seeds! "Whatever you do to people, people will do to you", well you did us wrong mamma, so here we are repaying the favor.

And daddy. What can I say about daddy? Well he's just not around, and when he's around you wish him away. That's all I have to say about the people who brought me to life.

I guess that that last month or so have taking It's toll on me. Well there you have it, an update! I'm sick (real sickness) and tired (real physical pain due to sickness) and maybe that's why I'm letting the bitterness out.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

بنت الملتحي ما تستحي :)

من زمان مو كاتبة عربي و احتريت من سلاشي و قررت أكتب عن الإبداع اللي صار اليوم. العنوان مالة شغل بالبوست بس أحب المثل حدا يعبر عن حالتي لووول :p

اليوم قايمة من الصبح (11:30، أي هذا صبحي!) عشان كنا أنا و ميشو بنروح العدان(بيت الزوارة) نزهب حق عيد ميلاد بنت خالتي بتكمل 18. عاد أنا أموت بالعيد ميلادات مثل ما تدرون فدايما أرتز بس يصير أكو تخطيط حق أي نوع من الحفلات.

المهم، رحنا و زهبنا قشنا و تفخنا تفافيخنا و يبنا الكيكة و ما نشوف اللا ولد خالي إييب صحن ويترسا كريمة عشان نقطا على ويها بس تدش الدار. أقولكم صعدناها و غنينا شوية و وصخنا الدنيا كريمة و صورنا و فجأة (دن دن دن) ما تشوف اللا غبرة و حوسة. طبعا إحنا كلنا قاعديين برا انتطمش و المشكلة إنا قاعد ندخل اليهال و الكبار مرتزين برا لووول.

عاد ظلينا برا صورنا و عبطنا على بنت خالتي إنها مسرع ما قبست. طبعا دخلنا و مازال مشروع الضغاط مستمر واحنا كالعادة ماخذينها ضحك و مصخرا. و أحسن شيء بالسالفة إنا الأمهات كانو برا جان شيفكنا من الدرامة!

و مدام السالفة صار فيها حكرا و متجابلين صار ما عندنا شي نسوي اللا إنا نلعب جنجفة و ناكل لأننا كويتيين و هذا اللي فالحيين في :p

و طبعا لازم نأخذ بريك و نصيد على البرودكاستات السخيفة. اللي يقولك مو كل شي ضحك واللي يقولك يوم القيامة وكل من صار نبي على روسنا. و لعبتها تدز برودكاستات طنازة حق اللي حاطين بيرسونال "ما يضحك ذكرو الله". و الله الحقارة وناسة و ما تحلا اللا على العاهات شسوي يعني! يا أخي مادري ليش الناس مأخذا الحياة جد زيادة عن اللزوم؟ يعني والله الضحك مو حرام هونوها و تهون (درر :D).

المهم، الحين وصلت البيت أبي أنام ماني قادرة خشمي مسدود (عبالكم ما راح اتحلطم؟ غلطانييين!!) و أمس اليهال نامو عندي و طبعا وضعي صعب أحس قاعدة بسبة الإدرينالين (حسست روحي إني صج الحين!). باجر خواتي بيونا معا اليهال بعد، الله كرييييم!

Friday, March 25, 2011

Wa7sh Twitter?

Twitter is where I unleash my stalker tendencies, I created an account for that reason alone. I don't tweet much, and if I did it's only because I can't put whatever I was tweeting about anywhere else.

I'm used to blocking anyone who follows me unless I'm following them back, because once again I don't tweet so why would you follow me ya 5aroof?

A couple of days ago I noticed that I had a new follower (I have 3 followers so it doesn't take much to notice), so I checked his profile to decide if he's worth following or blocking. What I found was so interesting (??) and now I'm not sure what to do!

So this guy is following 3 Sumaiahs (myself included). He RTed one of my ancient tweets then tweeted what I'm presuming is a reply (not sure if he was trolling or flirting, major fail on his behalf :p). This is creepy right? The normal thing would be blocking him, but I'm so curious and I want to know what's that all about. I haven't decided if I should be scared, flattered or amused!

What should I do? And if you're reading this, then what the hell dude?

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Doctor Stupid

I'm so mad at the universe at the moment.

Some of you already know that my best friend has MS and she's having difficulties with her studies, what with her having to leave for weeks at a time when going through an episode. Yesterday was the first day she attended classes this semester and what one of her instructors told her made her so insecure that she's actually considering dropping out!

She's a strong woman who, in spite of all the difficulties that she going through, is still managing to seek knowledge and be productive. Why would you want to put such a person down?

You're supposed to be educated, with a so called PhD, didn't they teach you how to deal with a human being without degrading them to nothing? You're nothing but a stupid asshole who's not good enough to even talk to her. I pity you for your narrow mindedness you ignorant fool!

I'm so pissed off, I could barely breath...

Monday, March 21, 2011

Shame

I've finally started reading Salman Rushdie's Shame and I must tell you that I'm in love!

"You see before you, a fellow who is not even the hero of his own life; a man born and raised in the condition of being out of things. Heredity counts, dontyouthinkso?"

"Wherever I turn, there is something of which to be ashamed. But shame is like everything else; live with it for long enough and it becomes part of the furniture"

"Every story one chooses to tell is a kind of censorship, it prevents the telling of other tales..."

If I was to be granted one wish, I'd wish for his mind...

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Why Won't You Bleed?

First of, happy birthday little brother :*

I'm going to try and put this in the most polite language that I could come up with, even though the polite thing would be not to post about it, but when have I ever said that I am?

Ohhh dear blog how I've missed you! And you too bloggers, but not that much I must admit, lool!
This is where I tell you to not proceed if you're not interested in my PMS induced rants.

So I've been kinda busy babysitting my nephews from hell and vowing to never have kids of my own. No one ever warned me that having doctors in the family's that consuming. Silly me, I thought that not choosing that path is the end of my problems!
My sister's new rotation has changed life as I've known it dramatically, and now having the kids sleep over twice a week and visiting on almost daily bases is the new reality. Don't get me wrong, I love helping my sister out, I'll do anything for her because she's my sister! Yes, I am a family person even though I have conflicted feelings about most of my family members, don't judge :p
But I trust you've heard of that study stating that women's tears lower men's sex drive? Well, I think that kid's tears lower my well to live!

It might also be paralyzing my uterus and driving my hormones crazy, seeing that I'm late and having the PMS symptoms from hell.

You see, ladies and gentlemen, I've grew accustomed to being the heartless emotionless bitch that no one likes but me. It's been doing me good for the past, oh I don't know, 5 years or so. Now all of a sudden that robot that I call Sumaiah have been wallowing over the fact that no one wants to love a person so emotionally crippled, so self-absorbed, and who can't love back! La3ba dor 6ay7a bchabd ro7y, elwa'63 7adda pathetic! I blame this completely on Adele, she made me want to feel.

Whatever happened to healthy (??) mood swings and crazy cravings? I used to be ok with it when it was all about that. Well, not that ok, but as ok as I could ever be. I hate being this needy, when will I finally bleed :'(

Maybe I should go out more? Problem is I hate people and can't stand having to face them! You're talking to the girl that stays in bed most of the day to avoid dealing with humanity, do you think that leaving the house is even remotely ok?

I'm starting to consider going to a therapist. And while I'm at it maybe I should go to an OB/GYN. A trip to an Optometrists is much needed too. I hate doctors, FML! :s

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

While I was Away

Wow! It's been a while since I last posted, I think I might've forgotten how to do it! I don't know what to post about so I'm just going to update you on some of the things that I've been up to lately:

- I went to a funeral. This is a big deal to me since it's only the third funeral that I've attended. I usually pass on funerals but I loved the deceased so much that I had to be there. I expected it to be weird bs surprisingly it was not! Even in her passing away she was still welcoming us through the smiling content faces of her family. May she rest in peace..

- Exactly 11 days ago I decided that I wanted to apply for the masters program of KU Graduate college. This wasn't my initial plan, but I guess you win some and lose some! I took the TOEFL exam on the 12th and yesterday the results came out really good so I applied immediately. I still have to wait and see if I get accepted into the program or not, but I have to say that I'm already having mixed feelings about this.

- I obsessed over an RPG game called "Trinity: Souls of Zill O'll" for like three days. My little brother told me that he'll finish it before I do and I went crazy! Lool I'm not kidding it was all I could think of. I'm a very sore loser and I take challenges very seriously. I got over it now because 3amoor doesn't play fair! He has the PS3 locked in his room and never gives to me until it's midnight, and I'm too old to stay up all night just to play! Now we're just bonding over it. I go to his room more often than before just to call him a cheater and give him playing advises even though he's 30 Levels ahead of me :p

- Went to the campus in kaifan with Mesho. This is an experience on it's own! I don't know where to start, but it's safe to say that it was one of my least favorite places to be in! It got really better near the end since I got to hang around the coolest girls on campus. They made me want to go through the agony again.

That's all I feel like writing right now. Plus, I don't want to bore you to death, not yet :p
So, what have you all been up to?

Friday, February 11, 2011

Yaaaaaaaay

The cake was so good but the frosting was disgustingly sugary.. Epic fail :p

I played 3anbar, flew lanterns (Mesho drew on mine :D), and ran around barefoot. I must admit that those stuff don't go well with menstruation and I'm sure going to pay for it tomorrow! Who cares though, it was AWESOME :D

I had fun today bs I'm really tired now and I have a TOEFL exam tomorrow at 8, wish me luck :D

Thursday, February 10, 2011

22 سنة من العطاء المستمر

I asked Noro to write me something for my birthday to shake things up. This is exactly what she sent:

HApPY BiRtHDaY;*
HaPpy bIrThDaY;*
HappY BiRthDAY ;*

Kl 3am w entay bkhair ya kl el khair bkl 3am kl 3am w entay my best friend kl 3am w entay ly agrab w a'3la w a3az mn dkhal galbii kl 3am w entay ly nabth w galb w nefas kl 3am w entay ly 7beba w sadeqa w ekhet <3

3assa allah la efaregna w la ya7rmni mnch wla mn ynonech w khbalech ya a3az khebla b.denya ;p
W 3asach ma tshofen etaja3ed mbacher wla t7tajeen plastic surgery wla shad nafkh wla shaf6;pP
w 3asa 3omrech mded w t3eshen m3ay a7la ayam 3omrech( bs m3aaaay MAFHOM ) ;@ ;pP
W 3gbal ya raaaaab 1000 sna b.sa3ada w fara7 w ra7at bal w khair

;* A7bch ;*

This is me again! I'm typing to say that I just died *tears of joy*
Ok I'm not crying but I'm happy enough to think about it! Doesn't make sense? Oh well, when have I ever made sense! :p

1 Day To Go..

This is the face of the tinny devil that I slept (he slept, I was awake because he snored and kept kicking and punching me!) with yesterday! His grandma (my sister's mother in law) passed away last night and their mom wasn't in a state to care after anyone. Everyone was crying around the kids so I volunteered to take them because I can't process death! I cry over cold bath water, I cry when I'm exhausted, I cry if someone woke me up for no reason, but I can't cry over the loss of someone. Guilt is my way of dealing with loss.

I feel guilty for being happy! I feel guilty for being put together and in control. I feel guilty for celebrating life while she passed away!

She was one of the nicest people that I've ever met. I never heard her say something bad about anybody or to anybody. She always made sure that everybody is ok at all times. She spoiled the kids rotten and could never say no.

RIP Rabe3a, you'll always live on in our hearts :*

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

2 Days To My Birthday

3azezany drew Mesho, himself and I! I must admit that they could be cute sometimes (there, I've said it!).

This is dragging on forever! Even I am running out of enthusiasm -___-

One of my friends and I went to the scientific center for a walk today (very early today!). I had a lot of fun, the weather was magical and I enjoyed naming the beach cats in my head and picking the cutest. There was this cool swing that I wanted to take home. I'll go hunting for something that looks like it.

I remember when the scientific center first opened and how excited we all were. I can't seem to remember the first I-max movie that we've attended! I've been driving myself crazy trying to remember but I couldn't!

I'm going to see Noro on sundaaaaaaaaaay :D
I can't wait! I haven't seen here since I don't know... Tooo long! I'm so happy for her because she finally got what she wanted! No she's not getting married, how sexist of you to jump to that conclusion!! And unfortunately they didn't discover a cure for MS! She finally switched majors :)
She's been wanting to do that but she had to drop out of a couple of courses because of crucial health issues. Now she did it :D
Mabrook 7abebty oo 3o2bal ma ashoofech 5ereja :*

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

3 Days To My Birthday

We found a dead bunny in my aunts backyard. I'm not sympathetic or disgusted because I really hate bunnies! They annoy me, they look evil! Yeah, I know it doesn't make sense huh! Well, shut up!

Once upon a time yours truly loved animals! We (Saro, Mesho, 3amoor and I) used to rescue injured street cats and nurse them to recovery. Then when we got older we got our own cat who then gave birth to 5 bastards (lool half persian half street cat) of which we kept one. We named her Anjo and she was the cutest!! Everybody used to say that she looked a bit like me, I don't know how they figured that out! :p

I still remember how tissue paper used to drive her crazy. How she loved having her fur blow-dried. How she radiated heat when she sat on my lap and purred her way into my heart. This almost makes me want a cat!

Unfortunately Anjo lost her mind so we had to send her away. I didn't like animals that much ever since.

Tell me a pet story!

Monday, February 7, 2011

4 Days To My Birthday

We're getting there folks, hang in there :p

Today we're talking songs! You know how some songs are linked to certain persons or certain events. Well I'm basically going to list some of the songs that I hate listening to and why and the songs that I smile when I listen to and the reason behind that. I've never linked in here and I'm not about to start doing that (1- I blog from my BB and can't link, 2- even if I could I wouldn't bother :p), so if you want you can google!

Songs I hate:
- Please Don't Leave Me - P!nk:
I'm not saying that I'm so special and hard to get over (though I really am :p), but someone found me to be all of that and sent me a video with that song on the background after I told them that it's not working! Well, I find this song really irritating now because of that.

- Playing God - Paramore:
This song reminds me of my dad! It's like it's written for him.

- Whip My Hair - Willow Smith:
My stupid cousin singes it in a way that makes him look retarded. Plus, it's really annoying.

- Avril Lavigne Under My Skin album:
It reminds me of my teenagehood.


Songs I love:
- Singing in the Rain - Gene Kelly
I used to go outside in the rain and sing this song. I still feel rain-drenched and happy when I listen to it.

- Que Sera Sera - Doris Day
Noro always sings off tune and murders any song that comes out of her mouth. You should hear the way she sings this song! Trust me you won't stop laughing.

- So What - P!nk:
It's an empowering breakup song.

- These are A Few of My Favorite Things - Julie Andrews:
I just love singing it loud like I'm in a musical myself :p

- Fuck You - Lily Allen:
It's for some of the male figures in my life!

- Fuck You - Cee Lo Green:
Another empowering song.

- Pretty Girl Rock - Keri Hillson:
"Don't hate me cuz I'm beautiful" :p

Now tell me some of yours? :)

Sunday, February 6, 2011

5 Days To My Birthday

My stomach is slightly upset because of my latest craving! It's not for the faint hearted :p

An old friend of mine have contacted Noro because she wanted my pin. When Noro asked me if she should give her my pin I said no! I know that she's a nice person and she was a good friend. It might be that I'm still hurt that she abandoned me at a time when I needed a friend the most! I might've not called and asked for help but I was so tired that I was becoming physically ill. Well never mind it's over, we're over, time to move on :)

Since we're on the subject of friends today's memory's going to be about, you guessed it, friends!

It was my 20th birthday, my friends surprised me with a birthday party. There was decoration and drawing on the walls with finger paint and a cake and all. That was the first time someone did something like that for me! I almost always was the only force celebrating my existence :p

I can't deny that it was good having the attention, but I have to say that I'd rather do things on my terms :)

Saturday, February 5, 2011

6 Days To My Birthday

The kids have worn themselves out so it's safe to start breathing again.

Today's memory's related to kids since I love working on themes and today is saturday after all! I remember growing up in my grandfather's house and the games I use to play with my cousins and siblings. We didn't have playstations, xboxs, and wiis. We had a 7oush and each other and that was more than enough.

I remember crying the day we moved out of my grandfather's house. And even when my aunts comforted me by telling me that I could visit anytime I was inconsolable! That's how much I loved it there. I miss playing romooz and 3anbar, '3omai'6a 5eshaisha 7ay elmeed bar ba7ar and alwan weshay6an! Maybe I should convince everybody to play them with me on my birthday :p

Another Anti-Kids Post

Before my sisters got married and had kid we were happily old and self dependent. The youngest in our household is 3amoor who's 17 going 18 on march. So when the kids came they brought their own set of changes and rules! We weren't allowed to keep our cat and any talk of new pets was immediately dismissed (yes I used to care for animals and I had feelings and all). We had to remove all sharp objects and base all decoration discission around the kids safety and well being. We had to give our basement away for them to wreck and destroy.

Are we happy about the changes? Most definitely not! Are we taking it without a fight? Unfortunately yes, for who would rob kids of their childhood (I would if it was MY house! Oh sue me for not caring!!). Don't get me wrong, I could love a kid for a couple of hours, What I hate is having to organize my life around one! I made the discission of not having a kid, so why should I suffer for someone else's mistakes?

It's Saturday, the kids are over *hides under the covers*

Friday, February 4, 2011

A Week To My Birthday

Ok we're back on plan again! I'm going to be in the great outdoors (not exactly, it's just a ya5our!) on my birthday :D
I'm going to fly my lanterns without worrying about burning the block down now (mom over reacted when we told her we're flying them from the house)! :p

Now for the memory part.... Ummmmmmm..... Hmmmmmmm.... Ok I'm sure I could remember something! Lool I'm just kidding! As horrible as I might make you believe my life was, it's really full of stuff that I'm really happy about :)

Ok I have it! Spring break of my last year at college, I was in a rot (aren't I always! But this time I had plenty of reasons to be depressed!). I was living my life like a zombie and couldn't even bother acting ok around people. My uncle commented about not being used to seeing me this sad and teased me about it continually. He knew that there was something really wrong because, against your common belief, I'm a really cheerful person and it takes the tinniest nudge to put me in a laughing fit.

My uncle thought that a little road trip would do me good, so my uncle Mesho my aunt and I packed for a 2 day trip to el5afjy and bahrain. We laughed, acted out, complained, and started living again! It was a much needed time away from home. Those 2 days might be the happiest most carefree days of my adult life. And of course it didn't hurt that we shopped til we dropped :p

Thank you uncle Ali for taking the time out of your life to make my life vibrant again :*

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Birthday Countdown

Next friday I'll be turning 22 yaaaaaaaay! Lool I know that you've heard plenty about it already but you'll hear even more whether you like it or not :p
I'm starting a countdown for the joyous occasion. Though I'm not sure what's the subject of the posts should be about! I'll probably write about memories or something but don't worry I'll dig up some good memories, I embrace positiveness around my birthday :p

I had a short lived scare as I was searching for the perfect chocolate cake recipe for my birthday cake while still in bed and refusing to get out and face humanity. I already made the cake once and it came out heavenly, but me being me I lost the recipe. I could've sworn that it was joy the baker's recipe and I nearly died (exaggerating again :p) looking for it over and over again with no success. I then went to my best friend google and typed what I remembered was the cake's name and apparently it wasn't joy's :p

After boring you with that story, yes I'm admitting that I, Sumaiah will be making my own birthday cake. This is particularly disturbing because I don't have the patience to make and decorate cakes. I'll be frosting while the cake is still warm and end up with a lopsided goowy mess. But (yes there's a but), it's my birthday! I love birthdays! And most important of all, I love me! I'll do anything to get in the mood of celebrating me!

Will it turn out perfect? Most definitely not! Will it taste good? I've made it before and it was so moist and gorgeous but I made the mistake of frosting it with espresso cream (I was PMSing and craving coffee), let's say that not everybody was craving strong coffee :p
This time I'm making it with peanut butter (that's what I'm craving this time!) cream cheese frosting *feeling fuzzy inside* so if I didn't fuck it up it'll be the cake of my dreams :D

Loool that post sounds martha stewart-y minus the superiority complex :p

Off Granddaughter Duties

I'm up tooooooo early because I was supposed to go with my grandmother to the hospital. I set my alarm and prepared myself for the day ahead but no one came to make sure that I'm up, so I'm staying in bed I guess :p

I love my grandmother! Even though she's mean and grumpy and nothing's ever good enough for her I still do love her. And even if my dad is this messed up because she's his mom I'm not cautious around her as much as I am around him!

I didn't use to like her when I was younger bs now I don't know it's like she grew up on me or something! But don't worry I started not liking most of the family to balance it up :p

I can't go back to sleep now, and I don't want to get out of bed... I'm hungry what should I do? :s

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Grocery list?

Yes this is my hand writing, shut up! Who needs to write now when we could all type? Stop laughing zain it's not funny!!

I'm used to buying what I need or calling mom and telling her what I want but yesterday mom wanted me to write it down so she wouldn't forget. I wrote everything that I wanted and gave mom the list and she started laughing! I had to read it back to her and she was hysterically laughing and then my sister came and started laughing too! I don't think that it's that bad, do you? Next time I'm printing it out!

5arofty (my nephew) turned 1 today, happy birthday 3alaweee :*

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Liquid Love


Look what my 3ajmeya neighbor sent me, arabic coffee :D
Isn't that the nicest thing anyone could do? You see, I'm in love with arabic coffee but we can't make a decent coffee to save our lives. Every time we go visit them I keep praising the coffee (yes I love it that much), so they've been sending us some coffee every once in a while. They're the nicest people that I've ever met, we're blessed to have them as our neighbors.

Now as I sat thinking of something to send back tomorrow, all I could think of are cheesecakes and cookies! I don't think that 7a'6ar are good at doing anything arabic really! We're a bunch of good for nothing westernized brats!
Ok I'm done, bye yallah go away! *getting out my ingredients*

Girl Power

RESPECT!
This is to all the strong ladies out there. ROCK ON :D

Yes I'm gaying this up because you wouldn't let me comment! In your face :p

February <3

February's finally here! No more negativity for the next couple of weeks. Everything's going rosy red (that's the equivalent of baby pink to me :p) and pretty because yours truly was born on the 11th :D

Yes I was into chinese astrology in high school you could stop laughing now! This book was like a bible to me. I used to ask people about their chinese sign and go home and read about it, I don't miss those days!! Anyways, what's your chinese sign?
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Monday, January 31, 2011

Family Induced Depression

Seriously people if I had to see one more extended family member this week I'll kill myself!! I don't have any problems with my aunties (my moms sisters) I could see them every day and not get the urge to strangle myself with a shoelace. It's just that ever since my grandma (dad's mum) came to stay at our house, her daughters have been coming none stop! And to make matters worst, my dad's aunt and her daughters (more loud people that I don't know) came yesterday and I haven't even recovered from that awkwardness to be sitting at the same table with his sister and her daughter today!!

I wish I could be spared the tedious smiling and correcting my name. I wish we could skip me telling them that I'm not in school, I'm not in college, I've graduated, and yes I'm still unemployed and a I'm still a burden on all humanity! I wish that they'd stop acting as if we're a tight knitted family. After all I've just learned their name (I couldn't tell my aunts apart until recently!) and they still don't know mine!

I'm just tired of acting proper, I miss the crazy me who giggles like a maniac and acts like a 4 year old brat! I miss having fun, my kid at heart is feeling very weak these days. I really don't mind growing old, I just mind growing tired.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

A Hundred Flying Lanterns

It has finally been proven, I'm the gobesest gobes (derived from gobesa :p) to ever roam this earth! I've been making a fuss about going camping on my birthday because I wanted to fly a hundred lantern. Well I have the lanterns now but the camping trip was cancelled due to god only knows why :'(

They're trying to find another place, but it might not be on my birthday so I'm feeling a bet down. Plan B was flying them from our roof but my mom lost her mind at the mention of that! I might do it after all just to rub it in her face :p

Now as you can see, the lanterns are colored and tacky looking (and the zebra covers are even tackier looking :p) but they'll look pretty when lit and floating up there :)

Everyone wants some but I'm only giving my aunt because I love her, the rest could kiss my ass :p

Driving By Your House

I just drove by an area that made me uneasy! That stupid heart of mine, when will it let go and just move on. I'm over the person but not over the confusion. I thought if I called it off that would make it easier to handle. I was wrong! It just made me the evil one, but with a broken heart!

But don't go around flattering yourself because I don't miss you a bet! I've never loved you, I just miss being loved! I never said that I'm not self centered, what made you think other wise?

Hope you're ok and doing well. I'm really glad that you bounced back really quick :)

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Haircut?

I've had long hair for the major part of my life, but I feel that I desperately need a haircut right now! My last haircut was in my third year of college (ages ago!). I had just taken a midterm that I fucked up and I wanted to blow some steam, so I took my friends and went to the hairdresser and had my hair all chopped off. It was a nice change having super short hair and it looked pretty cute!

My hair now is lifelessly long again, and I've been thinking of just cutting it all off! Sometimes I get the urge to grab a razor and shave it all, but then I remember that I don't have the right face shape to carry it off :p

I want to get a stupid cut something like Shane's from the L word, freshly fucked is the name of the cut, now how fabulous does that sound :p
But I can't carry that off too, most unfortunately! Plus, I can't go too short because of my sister's wedding on late march :s

I don't know!
*plays with her high ponytail* ouch I just pulled something out :s

My house is being used as an unwanted kids refugee camp. I swear to god if I had to listen to them ever again I'll pull my thinning hair out!
Ok chill Sumaiah chill.
Now that I'm thinking straight I'll be selling them for 10 KDs a head, any buyers?

Do It Like A Dude!

Going to celebratory gatherings is such a hassle if you're a girl! You have to pluck shave and doll up which takes up to 6 hours. You do all of those torturious activities to endure 2 hours of the worst torture possible.... The judgmental looks of old ladies! Getting ready to me means:

- Shaving: which is almost always done at the last minute and on a rush which results in blood shed and bruising!

- Hairdo: if you like having your hair pulled and smothered in hair spray then you'll love this step! I on the other hand hate putting my hair to the extremes!

- Makeup: I don't have any problems with facial makeup, it's the body makeup that I hate. I forgot my body makeup today and had a couple of awkward conversations. Some thought that my scars were stretch marks (being over weight finally paid off!), others thought that it was shaving gone wrong, and some had their suspicions. I really hated being that exposed, I felt so stupid!

- Mental Preparation: it's the hardest of all! I'd take waxing (something that I vowed to never do!) Over having to be around the family elders and having to act proper and all! I feel so stiff still :s

I'm bored of going to those occasions as a girl, next time I'm doing it like a dude! :p

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Girly Camp

I just got home from another camping trip but this one was kinda interesting! My aunt's school staff rented the place so the group had no males, and the girls went all out. There's plenty a girl can do when surrounded by stereos and shesha. Unfortunately I went with my aunts so I had to act girly and shy, and let me tell you that that wasn't fun :(

I could've danced but I'm not really that good at dancing so I only dance around family. The only thing that you can do around dancing girls, if you're not dancing, is stare at asses, so that's what I did! Thank god I'm taking dancing classes on march because I really love dancing and it's a shame that I suck at it.

I loved the idea of an all girls camp, but next time I'd love it if I was around people I cared about. I'm sort of anti-social so I was kind of intimidated and quite reserved and that prevented me from actually enjoying my time. We left early because we weren't having fun, and we needed to use the bathroom and I was obsessing about all the things that I couldn't do!

It was good though since we (Mesho and I) haven't been to our house since yesterday because we needed our time away. We had a sleepover (minus the sleeping part!) at my aunt's house then we went camping in the morning. To be honest I still don't feel like going back...... Any ways, I really want to ashayesh and dance now!

The ta'3reez part was the highlight of today :p

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

BB.... M :s

I have a tendency to do whatever I want, however I want to, no matter how absurd or inappropriate it might be. That tendency managed to manifest itself in every electronic mean in my life, a keyboard is like my invitation to misbehave!

I'm not gonna defend what I do here because this is where I vent and I don't believe that venting should be censored! I'm going to talk about how I abuse my BBM and what my poor contacts have to put up with.

I believe that BBM is one of the worst thing that happened to humanity. The last thing that I'd ever want is to be available at all times! I hate it more than I hate onions (that means a lot in my vocabulary :p)! That's why I have a limited amount of contacts and they're divided into three categories:

1- Family members: they could be useful sometimes.... Who am I kidding!

2- People who I actually talk to:
- Noro: my best friend who loves to talk! And I actually love reading what she has to say :)
- Mesho: my sister and partner in crime.
- Sero: my flirting buddy. Innocent (emphasize on innocent) flirting is one of my favorite hobbies, and that's why I tend to do it in a controlled environment :p
- Drunk friend: I like to tell her that she's stupid every once in a while. I love to believe that that's how we bond!

3- People I used to go to college with: I don't know why they're still on the list! I've deleted most of them but kept a couple for some reason. I rarely talk to them (I only reply if they initiated a conversation) and I couldn't care less about what they have to say!

Other reasons to why I only have those on my list are:
1- Inappropriate use of my personal msg space and display picture. I write whatever pops into my mind, it's usually not pretty as you can see :p
2- I tend to delete people for sending too many Broadcasts or if they get on my nerves.
3- People are way too sensitive and they get offended easily!
4- I don't like people!

What technology do you abuse? If you say none then you're not normal :p

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Typing Away the Awkwardness

- My aunt asked me to teach her brats math.. She asked ME!! I can't deal with kids, I don't like children, and most important of all, I DON'T TEACH IDIOTS!!
And I don't like math! I mean I'm good at it, but I'm not passionate about it. Any ways, I ended up telling them that they're stupid and I'm not wasting my time on them if they're not welling to learn. The boy sat on his ass and listened but the she-monster pouted and complained so I told her to get out of my face or I'll cause her serious damage :p

- My sister just got married to the person that she's been in love with for the past 3 years. So it's only normal that she's glowing and acting all lovey dovey and what not. Don't get me wrong I'm really happy for her, I've seen their love grow and I don't think that anyone's as ecstatic about this more than I am. It's just that the blushing, the sparkling eyes, the inside jokes and flirting gets to be too much sometimes. When are they gonna get a room and use that love in a productive way rather than using it to make me nauseous!

- The weather's been very nice lately but I think that I might've weakened my immune system by staying at home. Now every time I leave home, I manage to come back with a cold.

- I think that Good Eats might be my favorite show ever! Where else can you find science and cooking combined in one magical program. I think I'm abandoning E! and going back to food network, I'm sick of reruns!

- My dad's sister and her daughter are visiting us. I always feel awkward when my dad's relatives come by. They always forget my name and keep asking me what grade I'm in :s
That's why I decided to ignore them all and write this post so I won't have to make small talks or any type of effort to bond with them! I think I stayed long enough and no one will be offended if I left right?

Thursday, January 20, 2011

ID.

Investigation Discovery is one of the lamest channels that you'll ever watch. After stating that fact you'd think that I don't watch it! Well, you're wrong as usual! Mofy (my eldest sister at home) loves that stupid channel and forces me to watch it as well. I've decided to let you all suffer with me by listing some of the lame programs names. I'm not sure what some of them are all about, but they sound stupid and that's why they make the list :p

1- Couples Who Kill: seriously ya3ny! I think that ID. is were creativity goes to die! Couldn't they come up with a better name? It's not as if the idea is so good by itself and that's why they're not making that much effort, because it really sucks!

2- Dr. G: Medical Examiner: Dr. G is a good name for a porn star not a coroner! Grim reaper would be more appropriate though :p

3- Disappeared: every time the guy on the ad says disappeared I remember "Room" a stupid novel that I've recently read.

4- True Crime with Aphrodite Jones: if your name is Aphrodite you should either be an exotic dancer or a porn star because no one will take you seriously (well, I'm not sure about everyone but I won't!).

The names are not the only thing that went horribly wrong with those programs. Most of the programs on ID. contain sucky reenactment and believe me the acting is so bad it's much worse than reality shows!

You must understand how bored I am to understand why I just wrote a long post about a channel that I hate :p
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I'm bored!

I'm marking my territory, DooDa's my pet name.

I'm bored, I don't want to read! And I'm feeling chatty but I don't want to talk so I'll post! Except that I have nothing to post about so I'll post about nothing :p

*thinking of something to say*
Amy Winhouse's going to have a concert in Dubai on my birthday. I love Amy Winhouse and I want to go but guess where I'm going to be on my birthday.... Lousy mo5ayam! With lousy family members, freezing my ass off and eating lousy food!
No seriously speaking, I love going to places with my extended family (mom's side of the family), shocked? I love being around my aunts and uncles and guy cosines, they make me feel protected. And my cousins are so funny I can't stop laughing around them! My girl cousins are ok but I'm not really good at befriending girls, they're way to sensitive for my liking!

I want to fly lanterns on my birthday, millions and millions of them! Well, maybe hundreds I don't think that I'll have the time to fly a million :p
Do any of you know of a place were I could find lanterns in large quantities?

If I thought of something else to say I'll post again :p
Yes, I'm that bored -__-

Reading Keeps Me Centered

Growing up I've had difficulty blending in. To me recess was almost always spent at class with one of my novels. I remember being asked about why I read and how each time I gave a different response depending on who I was talking to and the mood I was in. One of my favorite responses was that reading keeps me centered, and that's exactly what I need right now.

I haven't been reading lately because I've started reading a translated novel a month ago and I'm not a fan of translated work unless it's Paulo Coelho's (most of his novels suck but I love him!). I bought it on an impulse and I have a rule of not leaving a book unfinished so I'm going to have to continue reading it to start a new one.

Books have played an important role in my life. They're the only constant that I've had, and I can always depend on them. Now I shall go read! Well, maybe after I get out of bed, and watch some TV :p