Thursday, December 30, 2010
Ok now I'll stop with the cookie rambling. So when is the new year? Is it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow? What day is it today actually? And is there 30 or 31 days in this month? Wait let me check my calender! Ok, no need to answer anything, I just figured it out.
I've been sleeping too much lately and I think that my organs are shutting down. As you can read I've lost the major functioning part of my brain!
Been cleaning up my e-mail and I found stuff that depressed me. I should seriously stop digging up shit!
Moving on! What are you doing on new years? I'm doing nothing, surprise surprise :p
I've been checking out new recipes and it's like I want to make them but I don't really have the energy to take action. I spend about 16 hours in bed divided between trying to sleep, sleeping, and not wanting to get out of bed! Then I go and spend the hours I'm not in bed by staring at the wall with the tv on!
Maybe I should challenge myself to make something new (pumpkin cake?) by the end of the week and post pictures of it here. That should get me off of my ass because nothing else is working!
It's winter, I'm PMSing, that's what's wrong! You better not mess with me :p
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Eating sweets on decayed teeth is the worst thing a person could do! And I do that almost every day :s
I really need to go see a dentist but I don't want to permanently traumatise anyone! Wallah it's that bad!
Now that the year's coming to an end I'm having this impulses to do something right. So what clinic do you go to for dental care? And do you recommend it?
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
My right thumb's been twitching for a couple of days now and it's really starting to annoy me. I've also been lethargic and forgetful, so I started obsessing about it (that's what I do, I worry too much!). A normal person would forget all about it or go to the doctor, but I think that we've already established that I'm not normal! I tend to google my symptoms and it's been quite accurate in the past. This time I have answers ranging from vitamin D3 deficiency to brain tumor, so I guess I'll have to ask one of my sisters or even go to the hospital :s
What do you do when you're bored?
Saturday, December 25, 2010
he wrote the last paragraph because i called him a hypocrite once for making me take an exam when i wasn't feeling good because he had to abide by rules, while he tolerates cheating which is unfair to us (nerds)! lets say that he didn't appreciate that :p
1- Hanging out with Noro: she's my only close friend and I love her to death. I haven't seen her since ages though, because she has MS and she's having an episode and she doesn't like people seeing her at her worst. Please pray for her she's currently in the hospital finishing her treatment course.
2- Reading my recommendation letters: doctors loved me (well most of them!) And they didn't find it inconvenient to express it in writing. There's nothing better to do when your feeling down than reading other people saying how great you are :p
3- Mesho: she's my baby, my bitch, my inspiration, my reason to live, and my partner in crime. She's having a bad day today! Hope you feel better love :*
4- BBQing: you can't go wrong with burnt food and good company! Combined with an aching body the next day, it's just the recipe for happiness :p
5- Baking: it's a good way of relieving stress. And who can say no to cookies and molten!
6- Long baths: I could seriously live in a bath tub!
7- Food: if you don't know that food is one of my favorite things, then you don't know me!
8- Hand Rosy (card game, that's what my aunts call it!): you need to be smart to play hand, unlike stupid Uno which totally depends on luck!
9- Traumatizing my nephews and baby cousins: kids are stupid and it's impossible to hate making them cry! At least to me :p
10- Dancing: I'm a bad dancer but that doesn't mean that I can't dance! It so uncomplicated and natural. It's a good "pick me up" method :)
Now tell me some of your favorite things so I could make fun of you :p
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Ok. So today I went to the GUST vs. KU debate. It wasn't as civilized as it should've been, but some good arguments were discussed. I won't go into who was better, but it's safe to say that both teams could use some improvement. This is not me saying that they were bad, I'm just saying that they can do better :)
Since I used to be (I almost wrote I am! I feel ancient) a KU student, I'd love to say that our team rocked! You guys are our stars. Thank you for representing us the way you did, and better luck next time :*
On a different note, I've watch 10 episodes of greys anatomy (I haven't been in the mood to start watching season 7 until now) instead of going to sleep yesterday, and I think I had like 4 hours of sleep and I'm tired as hell! It's funny that I'm so dependent on sleep right now, when it used to be a rare event before! I guess I'm making up for lost time or something :p
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
This is my list of general obsessions so be prepared :p
1- Ultimate Survival (a show on Discovery): this Bear guy is such a turn on. He's not hot or anything but I can't help but get excited (I'm trying to be lady-like :p) when his show starts! If I ever was lost I'd rather do it around him because a) he'll get my ass out of trouble, and b) I wouldn't mind hanging around him :p
2- Eyelash curler: it's just awesome whether it's used alone or with ke7l and mascara. I have tiny eyes so I need those curlers to give the illusion of big. It really does make a difference! I think I lost mine though. I've been trying to find it today but it's nowhere to be found. That gives me another reason to go makeup shopping :p
3- E! Entertainment: what can I say!
4- Birthing videos: I'm sick I know! But it's not my problem that I find childbirth so sexy! And it's not because of some cheesy reason like the fact that it's the beginning of a new life bla bla bla.. No! It's because of the screaming, the sweating, the pain and the tension.. Ahhhhhh so hot! Don't look at me like that!
If someone found those videos I guess they'd think that I'm pregnant (which I'm not, believe me I know!). Let's hope that no one would ever go through my files :p
5- Motorcycles: they're just yummy and hot! I'm not gonna say more because I've already used up the horny card on the last obsession :p
6- Chelsea Handler: she's sooooooooo yummy! She's me but richer and more powerful! I love her *hearts*
7- Plastic surgery: need I say more! It's a blessing :p
8- Coverderm: it's a concealing foundation that you can find in any pharmacy. It's so heavy I'd never wear it on my face! I use it to cover up my scars and it works like magic. You can probably hide a penis with that thing, it's really that heavy!
9- Sex toys: I'm not going to get into details, and I shouldn't have to :p
10- Final Destination: ok it's not an obsession but I do enjoy watching it! I couldn't choose and 3amoor and I were watching it and laughing, so I thought why not! It's the perfect "cheer me up" movie. Its too stupid to be taken seriously.
I'm sleepy for some reason! But I'm too bored to go to sleep. Am I making any sense? Never mind, I don't even know why I asked this :p
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
1- Shrimps: I wasn't much of a seafood fan until recently. So now I feel that I have plenty of seafood to eat to catch up on lost times :p
Shrimps are my favorite seafood, directly followed by crabs. I still don't do fish, it smells so fishy :p
2- Burgers: I like them in all sizes and types. Cheese, lettuce, tomato, pickles, and most important of all, a huge beef patty. It's a classic couch potato food :p
3- Nachos: ultimate comfort food. Salty, cheesy, spicy, combined with some tasty sour cream. I could just die.
4- Activia fruit yogurt: even I manage to eat something healthy from time to time. This is my favorite healthy treat. I love the strawberry, raspberry, and mango flavors, but my favorite is strawberry.
5- Kaanlar's Telli Kashkaval cheese: it's a turkish cheese that you can find at your co-op. Grill it on your electric griller and you'll end up with a goowy and heavenly creamy flavor.
6- Mr. Backer's wara8 3enab: I'm addicted to wara8 3enab, but the problem is that my mom makes the worst! And I haven't found anyone who would just teach me how to make it. So I had to try lots and lots of restaurants and bakeries to choose my favorite (and I sure did enjoy it!). What makes it the best is that it's citrusy and spicy, it's just perfect.
7- Lasagna: I haven't found the perfect lasagna and that's why I'm obsessing about it! I know that I'm gonna end up trying to make it, but I'm too lazy to do so right now!
8- Popsicles: they're like childhood on a stick! They make me feel worm (m'6ay3a ha :p) and fuzzy inside. It's a funny thing..
9- Wasabi's beef noodles: I'm not big on the sushi habba but my sisters love japanese food. So I just had to find something that I'm ok with eating when we go to their favorite japanese restaurant. Their noodles is very good, I find myself craving it in the weirdest of times!
10- Co-op baked potato: I tried a lot of fancy baked potatoes, but I'll have to say that the gooweness of the co-op's baked potato puts it at number one.
If you want to recommend stuff for me to try, be my guest. But I'm extremely picky, so chances are I won't like it :p
Monday, December 20, 2010
Since we're approaching a new year, I'm feeling like making lists. Being me I'll have to start with what I hate :p
Stuff that irritate me: this list represents my opinion and nothing else. If you don't like it, tough luck!
1- Straight girls with lesbian nails: if you're straight then you have no problem with growing your nails then polishing them! You have no excuse to keep them short if you want them polished!!
2- Fat people pretending to be thin: I'm fat so I have the right to criticize fat people.
Other people shouldn't have to see your folds! They're just like your stretch marks, they're not for everyone to see!
3- Screaming kids: if I wanted to hear screaming I would've had my own baby, at least it'll be mine! Or I would've stayed at home! I don't want to listen to your annoying babies at restaurants or malls. Why don't you just leave those brats at home!
4- Muslims making a fuss over Christmas and santa: whatever! That's all I have to say about that! What freaking ever!
5- Playboy Bunnies: I don't have anything against the sex industry, I'm a fan actually! But those bunnies, they just annoy the crap out of me!
6- onions: it's stinky, it's chewy, it's nasty! I don't know why it's used everywhere, it doesn't taste good!
7- Chick flicks: why are they making more and more of them! Why do people sit for hours to watch that shit!
8- Vegan people: for some reason they think that they are superior! And they're always trying to convert you! I don't like vegetables, leave me the fuck alone!!
9- Uno Attack: I hate normal Uno, but this new Uno's just stupid! I vote make it stop!
10- Saline implants: it just doesn't look natural, it doesn't jiggle, it's just tacky! If your not going silicon, you might as well not go bigger!!
That's a wrap to this list (even though there's plenty from where that came from :p), feel free to add and I'll feel free to disagree if I don't like your addition :p
Tomorrow I might post about what I'm obsessing about :)
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Life is a variable. You have good days and bad days. Nothing stays the same whether you want it to or not. Today was a bad day...
I woke up feeling sorry for myself. I stayed in my messy room under my dirty covers and I felt so sorry for what's becoming of me. I might be breathing but I'm not living. I haven't been living for a long time and the sad thing is that I've accepted it. I'm ok with being barely alive, I'm ok with feeling like a failure, I'm ok with doing it the easy way.
Most of my followers are aware of the fact that I'm troubled. I'm not sure if all of you figure it out, but I have self destructive tendencies. The picture above is of one of my favorite destructive behaviors. I know that it's wrong (not to mention lame!), and I know that it doesn't change a thing, but I used to cut to feel alive (laaaaame!).
You might think that this is a sad post seeing that I'm gloomy and I'm talking about cutting! It's not really! It's been more than a year since I last cut. I'm not saying that I don't think about it, because as seen in the picture I still get the urge (which was taken this week!). Even though sometimes I have the utmost intention to hurt myself, I have managed to keep it as an intention.
I might be taking a long time to grow out of my stupidity, but I'll get there :)
I'm watching Scot Pilgrim at the moment, it's very funny. I'll go watch now, ok bye :*
Thursday, December 16, 2010
We went to watch "Life As We Know It" which is something that I'll never choose to watch, but it wasn't my choice (it was to early to object, my brain was still sleeping). The movie sucked as hell! It was sooooo bad I could've puked! Bs I had fun, I needed to go out :)
Afterwards, we went to my aunt's house for fo6oor. It was my cousin's birthday so we went to 360 again to celebrate. Picture 7 people cramped in a car and you'll have a visual image of what's to come :p
I remembered reading about a BB caribou offer (every thursday of this month at 360, avenues, and two other places but I'm not sure :p) so we went there to check it out. So the seven of us went there and got our vouchers and covers. You see, individually we're very loud and annoying, so combined together we're just despicable! I thought that people would boo us out of the place! We would've kicked their asses if they did, but still I thought that they might do it :p
Anyways, when we left 360 we still didn't want to go home so we went to elba7ar *hearts*. We were screaming and laughing throughout the ride. Then we went to el7ob because we felt like it! And I wanted to drool over motorcycle guys (two types of guys I can't resist are married guys and guys with motorcycles!)! It's safe to say that we went crazy, but that was only because my male cousins were with us (we all know what could happen to a car full of screaming and laughing hot (shut up!) girls :p).
When we finally decided to go back to my aunts house, I was having the mother of all headaches :(
I just got home and I'm sleepy and in pain so I have the right to not make sense so shut up and read :p
Ok people the queen has to go have a bath and get some beauty sleep. Goodnight you all :*
Ow, I nearly forgot about it. Happy birthday Badrany, I love you you old hag :**
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Anyone who reads this retarded blog knows that I've recently (does 6 months still account as recently?) graduated and I'm waiting for a job. I used to be picky saying that I wouldn't work anywhere that doesn't fit my personality (which wouldn't fit anywhere!!). Now all I want is to work!
Employ meeeeeeeeeeee! I'll come on time, leave on time. I'll work hard and won't have meaningless chats with anyone. I'll make cookies everyday for a whole month! I'll do anything just let me work!!
I should've studied pharmacology *sigh*
Maybe I should be a prostitute! You don't need a was6a for this. In fact I might score a was6a doing it :p
Not that I'll ever do (no pun intended :p) was6a! I don't swing that way (lame -_-)!
Monday, December 13, 2010
I've never been so fond of TV until I graduated. Now that there's not much to do, I'm either reading and watching TV or sleeping and watching TV (I sleep with one eye open :p).
You'd think that a smart person such as myself (shut up I'm smarter than you all and I can prove it!!) Would be watching something of value, but nooooo! I had to be addicted to stupid E! *pukes*
You'd also think that I'm enjoying it if I keep watching, but nooo! I hate it!! I keep ranting about how stupid those people are, how retarded the shows are, and how dumb I am for watching! My family and friends are so sick of this phase because I've been babbling nonstop on my FB account about how E! is making me sick! Examples of what I've lately been posting:
"that really loud chika on modern family's very hot!! every time she speaks (more like scream) I just go ehm I'll stop now :p" < that might be the nicest thing that I ever wrote :p
"I don't like Heidi Klume (is it written this way? I couldn't bother googling it!), she's sooooooo blah!"
"I'm sick of ppl idolizing Taylor Swift (why do I know how to spell her name!!). when is she gonna screw up and make ppl hate her! I hate how girly and put together she is! give her some cocaine! girl release a sex tape or be human already!!!! could you tell that she irritates me?" Loool I can't spell to save my life, and I usually have to google names to get them right!
I'm so bubbley, aren't I? That's it for today, thank you come again :p
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Your not my boss. You can't tell me I'm stupid. You screamed at me twice and that's two times too many.
I used to love you but you made it so easy to drop you off. And I say drop you because you're a deadweight that I've been carrying around.
To all the assholes in my life: your a waste of emotional space. Call me when you're no longer a burden on humanity.
I feel like I'm suffocating. I just want out of this house. I'm nobody's doormat!
Friday, December 10, 2010
We are a long way from becoming a nation that thinks before it acts. A long way from being achievers rather than lousy trend setters. A long way from making our ancestors proud. If only we started the change, then that gap will soon close. The gap that separates us from superiority and evolving into something that matters. To become a nation that's listened to, pioneers who could think for themselves, not a floc of sheep following a drunken shepard.
I've lived through the separation and discrimination. I suffered on the hand of corruption and favoritism. I'm not trying to sound like a victim because that's not how I perceive myself to be. I'm just mourning the opportunities lost because society sow me "unfit" for.
I'm not angry anymore though. The injustice only made me stronger. I now know what I want and what I'm going to do.
"Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it", that's one of the smartest things that I've read in a while. What's done is done, what's lost is already gone. Kuwait is my past, it might be my present, but it sure as hell isn't going to be my future.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
i didn't make her sleep here, she wanted to!
Sometimes when I get so close too dying of boredom, I steel my baby cousins for a sleep over.
I don't like kids really, but my cousins are so stupid and they adore me (I'm not kidding!). And since I miss having people who look at me like I'm the best thing that ever walked this earth, I sometimes love having them around. I can be nice if I wanted to. And those girls just need someone to tell them that they're just perfect the way they are. I do admit that I'm doing this to prevent them from becoming me! I'm just that nice, what can I say :p
I might have good intentions, but I can't help but be a bad influence on those little girls! You see, I'm not mommy material! I expose those girls to bad language, violence, and sexual material even when I try to do it right! Last night I tried to watch Disney channel with them, but I felt like I was gonna die if it lasted longer!! At least I'm learning! This time I didn't let them watch Dr. 90210 like the last time :p
And it doesn't stop there! I don't ever remember that I fed them anything healthy!! I did make them eggs and turkey sandwiches a couple of times, but it was way after their bedtime!!
I also tend to keep them up all night so they won't wake me up early!! OMG I'm awful, why do they beg to come back!!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
I'll stop bragging about how perfect a baby I was, and will get to the subject.
I decided to wear 7ejab at a very young age (I was 12 I guess!), but I never regretted that decision. I do admit that those "experimental" years were hard on the eye, and I will be lying if I told you that I didn't hate the look! It still felt good at the time because I wanted it and I did it for myself and not any one else.
We all had our ugly days I guess (if you didn't go through the ugly phase, then you're not welcomed in here anymore!:p). And it's ok because you managed to overcome it, right? Well think again my dear!
While I'm one of the people who loves to be pictured, because I believe that I'm the most gorgeous person alive (feel free to worship me!:p). I unfortunately loved to be pictured even on those ugly years. Now I know that it's so hard to believe that I was ever anything but perfect (says the overweight girl!), but do try to get over the shock! :p
Ok all jokes aside. The only thing worse than going through the phase is documenting that phase. And what's even worst is having evil family members blackmailing you with them damned pictures (thank god there are no videos, or none that I know of!)!! My gaol is to burn all of the evidence. Wish me luck with my mission impossible! :p
If you all act good and make mama proud, I'll post one ugly picture for your entertainment! So stay tuned I guess :p
Friday, December 3, 2010
I just came home from a girls night in and I'm feeling pretty good :)
I have to pee though! (I'm blaming Vainglorious for that!)
Okaaaaay! I really have nothing to write about! I just wanted to share my good mood *flashes a shy smile* :p
Been watching tooooo much E! lately and I think that my IQ's dropping!
But I also started reading again, so I guess this might help balancing my extremely high IQ :p
I'm currently reading "The Help". When I first started reading it, I though that I might not go through! Call me a snob but I'd rather have my novels written in proper english! There are parts of the novel that are written in poor black people english. I know that it's written that way to serve a purpose, but I also know for sure that I'm not a fan of that! I'm loving the story line so far though, which is why I'm still reading it :)
What else what else! I don't know! I've been through plenty since I last posted but I don't know if I want it written down! I think posting about failing and shit makes it more real... you know! Whatever!
The real reason to why I'm posting this is that I want to remember this feeling when I open my blog. Not the feeling that I had when I wrote the last one!
I really love life, and I love the people that I'm surrounding myself with(including you my lovelies :*). It still gets lonely sometimes, seeing that I'm not one of the priorities in any of those peoples lives! But it's ok I guess since I brought this upon myself! I'm really blessed though. Knowing that I'll have people by my side if I asked them to be is more than enough for me right now :)